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You asked me why you was so special, and i couldnt firgure it out

You asked me if i missed you, and my answer remained no doubt

You told me one day i will be yours, and things will not be the same

You told me you would not leave myside unless proven otherwise

I felt your heart from day one and knew you was special

I felt your pain because i was home stressn and think about you, and how bad i want you

I saw myself in you, so i never wanted us apart; i wanted us to bond and hold you in my arms

I saw myself falling, but didnt want to fall so hard and [Pause]

We both still standing holding on strong and [Pause]

When i said that i luv u my heart light up

When i said i care for you, i knew my mind was made up

I get goosebumps and butterflies when you are around

I get happy and anxious when i get a txt or a call

So far things feel good no frowns

From your eyes to your lips

From your chest to your waist

I want it all a full taste

Still here i sit, still tryn to define you

Here i lay wondering if this is a test do i really luv you

I had figured a broken heart couldnt get fix

I had figured this was it and i wouldnt find a soulmate

Here you come and just sweep me off my feet

Like as if you were the prince of my dreams

Have I not yet still delivered the message of why you are so special?

Have my actions not shown you how bad that I want you

Just know that I am happy

Just know I like everything about you

Just know I will always be there

I want to be with you thru your mind, spirit, and body

-Mz. Gin

THE NOISE: VIOLENCE

Tear drops running down my face

As my blood is running faster n faster thru my veins

The pressures on

As I think to myself, my heart beats fast

N when I think of him my heart skips a beat n my minds on blast

Ready to corrupt ready to disrupt

Looking in the mirror, you r what I fear of

I see a glimpse of my life flash by me

When I open, my eye is see I got a 40 glock right beside me

With my hands on the trigger, do I beg to differ?

Click click Clack

My finger off the trigger

The noises in my head no longer exist

No longer shall I disrupt, but my mind has been corrupt

I no longer exist

Who am I, I am the one who had been deceived

Who am I, I am the one that has become frighten of thee

Who am I, I am a lost soul truth be told

-Mz.Gin

ANGER

I’m a beast within a beauty

I’m a demon within the soul

I’m a human being with emotions inside

I am only right to get mad

I am only right to let go of all the emotions I fear

            To be happy

            To be sad

            To cry

Where I feel, inside I just want to die

Die in eternity

For what do I live for?

Where all I can do is get mad

I’m someone that has no emotion

Someone that’s captured in a spell and has drunken the entire potion

Set me free from all the anger inside

Set me free from all the headaches from suffering pain and misery I cry

Dark spirits arise in my body

While I’m dying in the inside

My hearts been eaten alive

While my flesh is left to dry

As I walk around depressed

Grieving for sorrow because my mind is so hollow

Now here I am tied up in chains

All because people think I’m insane

They don’t seem to understand me

They don’t seem to see the beauty within the beast

They don’t see it in my eyes that I am not a demon

That I am human, I’m one of them

I’m just so depressed with all the anger inside

Anger has taken over my life

Damn you Anger, Goodbye

I think it’s time I move on with my life

-Mz.Gin