AGENDA

First on the agenda is knowing your agenda 
Knowing how you move like how you do,
Knowing why you here and stuck between the two,
There is a fine line between the two
But still not knowing who to choose
Who’s on your agenda?
If not me then whom?
Is my agenda to bear your child in my womb?

Or plan to lure you between the two

Two, legs that you kiss when in between 

As you continue to Intervene

Leaving me confused and falling on me knees, in between 

Not a web of lies but leading me on to the fairytales that lies, when I look into your eyes

Fixating on me and you as we live happily ever after

Is my agenda my plan to marry you?

Or taking you away, by stealing your heart

Making sure that we are never apart

Besides the part 

where, you are stuck in between the two

Not knowing who to choose 

Who’s on your agenda ?

If not me then whom?

Mz. Gin

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You asked me why you was so special, and i couldnt firgure it out

You asked me if i missed you, and my answer remained no doubt

You told me one day i will be yours, and things will not be the same

You told me you would not leave myside unless proven otherwise

I felt your heart from day one and knew you was special

I felt your pain because i was home stressn and think about you, and how bad i want you

I saw myself in you, so i never wanted us apart; i wanted us to bond and hold you in my arms

I saw myself falling, but didnt want to fall so hard and [Pause]

We both still standing holding on strong and [Pause]

When i said that i luv u my heart light up

When i said i care for you, i knew my mind was made up

I get goosebumps and butterflies when you are around

I get happy and anxious when i get a txt or a call

So far things feel good no frowns

From your eyes to your lips

From your chest to your waist

I want it all a full taste

Still here i sit, still tryn to define you

Here i lay wondering if this is a test do i really luv you

I had figured a broken heart couldnt get fix

I had figured this was it and i wouldnt find a soulmate

Here you come and just sweep me off my feet

Like as if you were the prince of my dreams

Have I not yet still delivered the message of why you are so special?

Have my actions not shown you how bad that I want you

Just know that I am happy

Just know I like everything about you

Just know I will always be there

I want to be with you thru your mind, spirit, and body

-Mz. Gin

THE NOISE: VIOLENCE

Tear drops running down my face

As my blood is running faster n faster thru my veins

The pressures on

As I think to myself, my heart beats fast

N when I think of him my heart skips a beat n my minds on blast

Ready to corrupt ready to disrupt

Looking in the mirror, you r what I fear of

I see a glimpse of my life flash by me

When I open, my eye is see I got a 40 glock right beside me

With my hands on the trigger, do I beg to differ?

Click click Clack

My finger off the trigger

The noises in my head no longer exist

No longer shall I disrupt, but my mind has been corrupt

I no longer exist

Who am I, I am the one who had been deceived

Who am I, I am the one that has become frighten of thee

Who am I, I am a lost soul truth be told

-Mz.Gin

ANGER

I’m a beast within a beauty

I’m a demon within the soul

I’m a human being with emotions inside

I am only right to get mad

I am only right to let go of all the emotions I fear

            To be happy

            To be sad

            To cry

Where I feel, inside I just want to die

Die in eternity

For what do I live for?

Where all I can do is get mad

I’m someone that has no emotion

Someone that’s captured in a spell and has drunken the entire potion

Set me free from all the anger inside

Set me free from all the headaches from suffering pain and misery I cry

Dark spirits arise in my body

While I’m dying in the inside

My hearts been eaten alive

While my flesh is left to dry

As I walk around depressed

Grieving for sorrow because my mind is so hollow

Now here I am tied up in chains

All because people think I’m insane

They don’t seem to understand me

They don’t seem to see the beauty within the beast

They don’t see it in my eyes that I am not a demon

That I am human, I’m one of them

I’m just so depressed with all the anger inside

Anger has taken over my life

Damn you Anger, Goodbye

I think it’s time I move on with my life

-Mz.Gin

YOUNG GIRL

Young Girl in distress

Who’s been put onto earth

Yes she blessed

Yet her soul has been deserted

Stomped on in the dirt

Where she feels it in her heart

A pain that never stops

Where people just walk all over her

Yet her beauty and brains get her by

But her heart puts her in all these obstacles

That she can’t solve nor get by

Young Girl in distress

Who’s been put onto earth

Yes she blessed

A mind so young, but yet all she tries to do is be grown

She wants to live the fast life, while her childhood just flash her by

Where she feels trapped

Because she’s given up all her love

But yet she’ll never get love back

As she’s beaten by love, and all she wants it do is fight back

Young Girl in distress

Who’s been put onto earth

Yes she blessed

But yet is blinded by love

Her soul has been captured

Her life feels like a disaster

Yet she walks the walk and talks the talk

With her beauty and brains

You would think this young girl was sane

Young girl in distress

Who’s been put onto earth

No longer blessed

Yet she’s gone up to heaven,

So depressed and in distress

Yet she couldn’t handle the stress

-Mz. Gin

BEATEN BY LOVE

A skin so smooth

A skin so deep

A skin with so much beauty

As she holds her self to sleep

With a round pretty face

With sexy brown eyes

As she close her eyes

And cries her self to sleep

Such bruises on her back

While a black eye sits upon her face

With a frown on her face

As she’s gazed into space

Such grip upon her neck

Where she’s left with no air to breathe

Because she begging him Please, Please, Please

Such big cheeks as they turn red

You would’ve thought she was blushing

Yet it was a smack across her face

From the man she loved

As she tries to fight back

But all he does is hold her back

And tosses her Ass

As she gasp

Begging him to listen saying Please, Please, Please

A skin so smooth

A skin so deep

A skin with so much beauty

With rosy big cheeks

Big brown eyes

A smile upon her face

Now here she lies in bed

Next to a man

A man who has no shame

Yet that’s her man

And there she lay’s

-Mz. Gin

DESPERATION

Desperate time, desperate needs, desperate pleasure

Satisfaction just for time need and pleasure

Time to spend with one another

Needs that we just can’t give each other

Where pleasure comes and makes things better

Desperation to find your soul

To find exactly what the world shall hold

Holds right in the palm of your hands

Nothing but rain drops fall upon your hands

From the sorrow inside

A pain that just latches out and you tempt yourself not to cry

To seek all happiness that’s dwelling in the tide

Hiding behind the clouds, that are oh so gloomy, up so high

Everything seems so blurry as you look up to the sky

You ask your self Oh Dear Lord Why?

Why?

Why ask why

Ask yourself why you put everything upon yourself

The decisions you choose

The path you take that you assume will guide the way

Tempting to do whatever to determine the moment of truth

Desperate to be happy

Desperate to find out why these lies can scar you all in the matter of time

To find the moment of truth

Desperate times, desperate needs, desperate pleasure

Time to know the truth

Needing to seek the truth

Pleasure in being happy to know the truth

Desperation to find your soul

When all along its you, who holds all the answer to the truth

The truth to desperation of time need and pleasure

The world is in your hands

Are you that desperate?

-Mz. Gin

LOVE

 

 

They say don’t let love conquer all, yet the impossible is possible

The love you sense no longer is what it was

It no longer exist

Vanished into thin air,

Air that was not there, that I could not spare

Because you couldn’t breathe when the love was there in the air

When all was good, all was steady and ready for anything

Determination just to make love work

Even though all in the inside love just hurt

A pain so determine to change a pain you think will overwhelm, and things will be the same

Love comes and goes

 Pain comes and goes

Yet both stay forever in your mind n hearts because yet again you can’t forget

Forget of the good days the fun days where you felt love made you smile and laugh

Where the words I love you meant a lot but was it always real? Is that what kept us from not falling apart?

Was it love that was worthwhile or just love that meant nothing that felt like something

As I sit and think of the beauty of love is just loving yourself, conquering yourself to love you yourself before others

Do you want love to conquer all?

Do you want to listen to your heart or your mind?

Are you going to follow where the wind blows?

Not knowing exactly where the wind may take you

Into a dark cloudy night

Where love strikes you in the face

Nevertheless, hoping at the same time love will be on your side because of all the love you hold inside is here to stay

All the passion you have released

All the emotional and sexual contact you experienced

With love, you shared all your secrets and gain trust in love

Love doesn’t care it’s the person in you who holds the key to trust

They say beauty lies in the eye of the beholder

However, why can’t I see the beauty that lies within the beholder?

Is it block by all the sensitivity of all of my insecurity

Where I feel like love has made me two-faced and not true to myself 

Can I let go of love and find myself?

Can love confine who I am? Or is it me the can only determine thy self

I can go on and love forever but I must be true to myself, and let love conquer its self

-Mz. Gin